Went for spinal review today.
Woke up at like 6.30?! wadthehell.

Anw. X-rayed and waited for the doctor to cme.

Later he talked to me.
He was quite nice this time.
My condition has worsened
46 deg curve to the right..
They are like critical angles in which my spine curves
My right shoulder was lower than my left.
Overall, looking at my own x-ray was horrific.
I totally look like a freak.
A disfigured person.
Sme handicapped retarded freaky person.
Argh.
I hate myself. Both because of this, and tht bloody tinge of jealousy I have in my heart.

Anw. The doc says braces can't help any more. My condition calls for surgery.
I was quite happy at this cos surgery can just solve the problem.
But, my mom says theres physiotherapy aft op, pain, blabla.
I can't rly be bothered actually.
I mean, hu cares about me at all? =.=
I can't imagine how we are gna get the money for my op...
Fuck.
Hope I wun get trainee surgeons. They might make mistakes like suddenly snagging my nerves and making me bcme a vegetable or breaking my spine and I die.
LOL.

Doc is gna review me one mre time at Nov.. If it has worsened..
Surgery immediately, ASAP. Shld be in Dec though..
Ok, wadever.
Its a sooner or later thing.