Wad am I doing.. I should not hav gt into this again.. Why hav I done so?
I noe it was hopeless, I thought I cld just endure. Bt the pain.. The suffering.. Why am I doing this?
Who am I doing it for? Obviously, her. I knew the answer.. I noe the outcome. Bt why can't I take things to stride?

I'm confused.. I'm hurt. And I'm depressed. I dun want anyone's pity. I juz want...her.
She says she does not have that type of feeling for me and do not want to hurt me.. She has her studies to worry about now.. Why am I suddenly so selfish? Why can't I think things frm her perspective, all I care about is myself. I promised myself to just be contented to be able to tok to her, to see her. Why do I want the feeling of possesion?

Smethings, if their urs, they are, if their not, they are not. But my feelings for her.. I just can't accept it.. I dun want her to read this. I juz need smething for me to share my feelings wif.. In this case, my blog. As I type this my heart is bleeding by the moment.. I noe many others out there are suffering like me.. At 1st I do not noe hw they truly felt.. Now I noe.. Bt I dun regret being involved in love. It has opened my eyes and seen the sorrow of teenagers..

I now have a decision. To giv up or not? Even if I say that I do, is my heart able to do the same?
I noe I'm not suitable for you at all.. Why continue wif this hopeless struggle? My mind is so confused. I'm so frustrated. I can't forget you. I miss you.